I drove over to Balmerino tonight. I was picking up my stuff and moving back. I walked along the beach, I'd just been told mum had to go in the following Wednesday to find out if she has cancer or not. I was scared. It was quite a calm evening as the first signs of dusk were appearing. The water was calm and low. I gazed out at the view and then went back to Briar Cottage, and started to pack my belongings.